"Choices" ( as quoted from Irene's)

Read a fren's blog on 'Choices' and make myself indulge in a no-result self reflection today. Life is really like a continuos crossroad where one had to choose where should one goes OR stand stagnant there. I kept asking myself, should I stand stagnant in the middle of the crossroad and gain more experience in order for me to make a better decision on which route to follow, OR should i pick a road and follow the route without looking back without regrets and just follow what the route leads to? A friend of mine asked why don't i just take up a permanent job in other industry rather than waiting for freelance productions to knock the door everytime. My answer to that is, unless I wanted to start picking up things all over from scratch again. After all these years of changes, I doubt to convince myself to choose that route. However, at times, I did asked myself again, should I just take up a stable career path with stable income, not having to worry about what's next, OR should I wait, immerse myself more in the industry to gain more experience, but the pain is to wait for jobs to knock after every job finished and wondering what's next, or rather will there be anymore next time? Hadn't been able to have my mind clear for the past 2 years, I feel the same as Irene, standing in the middle of the crossroad, stagnant, but having the feeling of everyone/ everything dashing pass you, urging you to make the right choice quick, or you'll be left out in the dessert in no where. Now, I can feel my mind as if it's making up of thousand of strings, crumpled in mess, you can't just cut the strings just like that to make them straight, and even to untie the knots, it will make them worse, just like the chinese sayings 剪不断，理还乱. Seems like I'd bad at carving my own career path, i'm lost....